RE: Seperation

I've seen things you people wouldn't believe.
Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion.
I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhauser gate.
All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain.
Time to die.




I need to ask you so many questions but you never listen or choose to ignore, maybe sub conciously but you never hear nontheless. Why is there so much negative energy between us constantly you have bassed the end of our love, life and friendship on me responding to your negativity in a negative way (how else should i respond?) you wait and wait unitil the very last minuete pushing me further and further away "and remember we can both get with whoever we want..if it happens .. no violence..no arguing. BROTHER ♥" I read this as we are all ready completely over and this is us trying to be friends going out meeting people kissing them? going home with them? deserting each other in the name of a one night stand? Im not ready for this, get scared and dont go out, how was i supposed to know? and imagine my suprise after youve told me we can definitely not stay at yours and made it very clear your uncomfortable with me coming out for you to say I love you, I need you , I want to fuck you needles to say these are all mutual feelings,things ive longed to hear for so long but as always in the wrong context. I cant help feel like this is some sort of game and there would be no way you would be telling me these things if i played by your rules but i cant, i had for a year and a half and ended up heart broken and completely destroyed . In the things youve said to me this isnt the end maybe for your in your head but in your reality you ended this a long time ago. the things youve said in the messages youve sent me bring back emotions full of love and kindness but i realise you only tell me how you feel when you want an emotional response. all i can say is what i always say im hear for you to love but not to hurt I will help you when you need me but i will not let you put me down or make me feel stupid or a failure anymore because im not and if that makes me a less appealing person to you then im sorry but we have both changed so much. I understand why you see this as the complete end and respect that but if what you said in those messages was true you would work at this with me, we have a connection, i want you , your my soulmate. anyway hope your move goes well and ill help if you need me. id like to come and hear you read stories but i guess you dont want that now i want to support you in all your endevours but im sure you dont want that either. so all i can say is goodluck for your future and i hope you realise that this isnt the end maybe just a new beginning, maybe you can be happy finally :) xxxxxxxx





The last thing i may quote regarding you 
“And it came to me then. That we were wonderful traveling companions but in the end no more than lonely lumps of metal in their own separate orbits. From far off they look like beautiful shooting stars, but in reality they’re nothing more than prisons, where each of us is locked up alone, going nowhere. When the orbits of these two satellites of ours happened to cross paths, we could be together. Maybe even open our hearts to each other. But that was only for the briefest moment. In the next instant we’d be in absolute solitude. Until we burned up and became nothing.”
Sputnik's Sweetheart.