Tuesday, 21 June 2011

DRUGS

It was close, so close, it was serious.
You nearly freed me from these chemical shackles that have imprisoned my mind for as long as I can remember, you nearly saved me from all this. Aeriel, Jude, Helena, Opheilia do you remember? all were yours, could have been ours. Only you will know...... I hope.
Distant memories never fade in meaning.
I Want More.
The summer is here and I've never been colder,
The days are long and I am tired.
Be Happy.
Drink
Dance
Love
Have the best summer ever.
Please Please Forget this.
But remember once for 1 fleeting second that you could have saved me
not my life my soul.


Love a distant memory xx

Tuesday, 14 June 2011

drone (I hate to love you and wish to die)

Sleepless nights
sleepy days
I hate you
I love you
I hate the way I feel
your love
Like a constant buzzing in my head
a drone
of unforgetfulnes
eats me up
consumes me
my arms barley able to lift themselves
these thoughts these dreams dispearce
puzzles
your love
a drone
constant
unflailling
on and on and on
in the back of my head
pieces of contorted desire
aesthetic ability
show you dont caree PROVE you dont care
lies upon lies
drone
stone cold sound waves
drone in my head
what do they want?

What do I?


Monday, 13 June 2011

Why?

Why have you done this? I know its my fault I know you could never trust me but I just wanted to prove to you that I'm worth it. It was great before, before them, it was hard at times but was never like this, never empty. we fucked each other over constantly, hated each other from time to time and when we were broken and hurting and ruined we would put each other back together. Now after the last 6/7 Months, God its seememd like much less, all that time half a year since we were us, after the last 6/7 months of destroying each other and refusing to put each other back together, being apart, not having you there has become so persistent in my thoughts. I die everytime I need you, you have torn me to pieces and I want to forgive you I want you to be safe and I want life to cary on as it was but I feel that time has passed, Have we lossed our innocence? I want it I want to move forward but I just ask Why has this happened?

Why are you not here anymore? you used to be with me all day everyday in my head now your lost.

Just please tell me why soon.

Lots of love

Wolfie