I wish for so much
I look for control
You could have had it all
But selfishness prevails
You have lost it
We are lost forever
Our souls interwined, unhappiness combined
We threw away what we had together
Jelousy beyond belief
Pride sunken in skin
Loss of faith in a lover
Something we can never be
You have your freedom
Be free for your own sake
But what you had was responsibility
I didnt give you my heart to break
Sorry for the confusion
I never wanted you to feel unloved
But I wanted to feel love thats true
something I could never take from you.
Saturday, 30 April 2011
Sunday, 10 April 2011
A Screwball Tradgedy
Adam Green New york indie street folkster has unsuprisingly just realesed an amusing ketemine binge film starring the likes of Macauley Caulkin, Dev Hynes (aka Lightspeed Champion), Sky Ferreria, Pete Doherty, Davendra Banhart and Har Mar Superstar. Filmed entirely on a I phone the film see adam green and his cohorts running around new york but to say there is a story or plot would be ridiculous, the acting is hilarious with lightspeed champinon owning some hilarious lines "All fogots run away intuitively, and they cast themselfs such, in a play of life" as you can see pure genius.
At one point Adam get's his cock out and a dildo shoved up his arse which is pretty surreal.
To be honest this film is awsome its just a crazy mess of pictures and words which pretty much describes my life so yea get to
At one point Adam get's his cock out and a dildo shoved up his arse which is pretty surreal.
To be honest this film is awsome its just a crazy mess of pictures and words which pretty much describes my life so yea get to
http://thewrongferrari.com/ and watch it you will be suprised.
Fucking to young for this shit.
There really is a time when you have to say stop, when you try and try and try to be the person you are but people keep telling you your evil.
when nothing works and you always end up where you start its time to quit.
I mean its not like i'm not going through shit, Ive been on an emotional rollercoaster for the last 3 months, I havn't been myslef and behaved in ways I'm not to proud of.
I just wish things were different I wish it hadnt come to this but it has to be this way for both of our sakes.
Its time for us to both move on completely and stop wasting our lives with this ridiculous charade of darkness and light.
The only time I feel ok is with you, the only time I dont feel lost or worryied or at war with myself, I love you so much.........
You give me slight glimpses of hope that things will return to the way they once more, brief intervals of happyness..... an escape from insanity.
But its just a guise your hurt, I'm hurt, can it ever dissappear?
No
It cant to much has happened and its a mess.
Were both about to destroy ourselves and we both need to be saved
I spent last weekend off my face on more drugs than I can remember
I came out of the daze around tuesday not knowing where I'd been
Or
What I had done.
but the short amount of time I was out of it I wasnt hurting I wasnt needy or being and idiot I was just lost.
As you can imagie that tuesday was pretty messy.
then wednesday came and everything got alot better.
and now its worse again
I just cant do it
Sorry
when nothing works and you always end up where you start its time to quit.
I mean its not like i'm not going through shit, Ive been on an emotional rollercoaster for the last 3 months, I havn't been myslef and behaved in ways I'm not to proud of.
I just wish things were different I wish it hadnt come to this but it has to be this way for both of our sakes.
Its time for us to both move on completely and stop wasting our lives with this ridiculous charade of darkness and light.
The only time I feel ok is with you, the only time I dont feel lost or worryied or at war with myself, I love you so much.........
You give me slight glimpses of hope that things will return to the way they once more, brief intervals of happyness..... an escape from insanity.
But its just a guise your hurt, I'm hurt, can it ever dissappear?
No
It cant to much has happened and its a mess.
Were both about to destroy ourselves and we both need to be saved
I spent last weekend off my face on more drugs than I can remember
I came out of the daze around tuesday not knowing where I'd been
Or
What I had done.
but the short amount of time I was out of it I wasnt hurting I wasnt needy or being and idiot I was just lost.
As you can imagie that tuesday was pretty messy.
then wednesday came and everything got alot better.
and now its worse again
I just cant do it
Sorry
Tuesday, 5 April 2011
Don't fucking stop me yeaahhh
This song will forever remind me of new years day in a gay bar with effy and dan ahh it was so peaceful haha.
BLOODY BITS :)))))
I've been feeling really shit today until i found this ahh it made me happy :)))))))
Girl Child and Time
Girl Child
I met her at a place I always planned to take her
I found her when I stopped looking
I loved her when I was unloveable
I fucked her when I was a girl.
I lusted her warm hands on my cold flesh
I lusted her cock in my mouth
I lusted her cum on my face
I lusted her infinite lust.
She was always so young
to young
to innocent
but so deceptive
Strong Tough always blocking
walls are not meant to be knocked down.
we were so naive for each other
fantasist realist in our own little world
ducking diving emotional bullets
words so strong
never forgotten.
Time
They say time heals
what pain does time heal?
as we grow older time slowly decomposes our body's
before the grave, we are already dead
human condition
human submission
Time kills
slowly
inevitably
deceptively
Time flies
when your living life
life is a deception
this bleak nothingness used to be my distraction
YOU
were my distraction
from this eternal darkness
A desperate attempt to be free
clawing climbing begging
drinking smoking laughing
dancing dropping dying
flying
One day
I met her at a place I always planned to take her
I found her when I stopped looking
I loved her when I was unloveable
I fucked her when I was a girl.
I lusted her warm hands on my cold flesh
I lusted her cock in my mouth
I lusted her cum on my face
I lusted her infinite lust.
She was always so young
to young
to innocent
but so deceptive
Strong Tough always blocking
walls are not meant to be knocked down.
we were so naive for each other
fantasist realist in our own little world
ducking diving emotional bullets
words so strong
never forgotten.
Time
They say time heals
what pain does time heal?
as we grow older time slowly decomposes our body's
before the grave, we are already dead
human condition
human submission
Time kills
slowly
inevitably
deceptively
Time flies
when your living life
life is a deception
this bleak nothingness used to be my distraction
YOU
were my distraction
from this eternal darkness
A desperate attempt to be free
clawing climbing begging
drinking smoking laughing
dancing dropping dying
flying
One day
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