Fucking to young for this shit.

There really is a time when you have to say stop, when you try and try and try to be the person you are but people keep telling you your evil.
when nothing works and you always end up where you start its time to quit.
I mean its not like i'm not going through shit, Ive been on an emotional rollercoaster for the last 3 months, I havn't been myslef and behaved in ways I'm not to proud of.
I just wish things were different I wish it hadnt come to this but it has to be this way for both of our sakes.

Its time for us to both move on completely and stop wasting our lives with this ridiculous charade of darkness and light.
The only time I feel ok is with you, the only time I dont feel lost or worryied or at war with myself, I love you so much.........

You give me slight glimpses of hope that things will return to the way they once more, brief intervals of happyness..... an escape from insanity.

But its just a guise your hurt, I'm hurt, can it ever dissappear?

No
It cant to much has happened and its a mess.
Were both about to destroy ourselves and we both need to be saved
I spent last weekend off my face on more drugs than I can remember
I came out of the daze around tuesday not knowing where I'd been
Or
What I had done.
but the short amount of time I was out of it I wasnt hurting I wasnt needy or being and idiot I was just lost.
As you can imagie that tuesday was pretty messy.

then wednesday came and everything got alot better.
and now its worse again
I just cant do it

Sorry